One of the downsides of running an adult website and writing a blog when you're the nude model of said site are the times (like right now) when you really don't feel sexy. I'm sure I still look sexy enough and I certainly still feel horny, I just haven't felt particularly excited about posing for the camera lately. Or writing about it!
Part of what's been keeping me away from posting here and creating new photos to share has been the stirring of other passions, both sexual and non. On the non-sexual side, my creative juices have been flowing; I've been drawing, painting, sewing - making things! It feels great. I've been running my sites and working in the adult industry for so long that it feels really refreshing to do something that's NOT focused on what I look like for a change.
The other change has been the revving up my webcam. I hadn't done a private cam show since I moved to this house last year, but after getting a chance to play a couple of times last week, I realized how much I missed it. I love the instant gratification, the never knowing who is going to pop in next or what their fantasy will entail. Will I be fully dressed and dangling my heels? Or sucking my own toes? Or rubbing my pussy as a sniff my bare feet? So much fun!
And when we're finished, I'm also finished. There's no uploading or editing or batching or FTPing. I just crawl into bed with a smile on my face. Of course, the downside of that is I *don't* have anything to upload or encode or FTP. I would really like to have a high quality copy of my hottest shows. I love flipping through all my old photos and seeing the great shots, those old flip flops, that pretty shade of polish. And with the cam shows, it's more than that because I'd also get to remember the person I'm playing with. Plus I'd get to share with all of you!
