New Videos Coming

Gah! How did it get to be summer already? I'm feeling totally overwhelmed and walloped by money/work stuff, family drama & a household that just added 2 new members (without decreasing my own rent one penny, for the record). I'm scrambling to stay on top of everything and really wish I had a helper. Someone to take photos and videos of me or do all the photo/video editing would be a dream. A webmaster that could help me take care of all the site stuff so I could just focus on replying to emails and doing new shoot requests? Heaven! Ahhh...but I'm dreaming.

Since there is just one of me, I've been reading all of your emails, but have been slack on getting the replies sent out. I did get a chance to shoot today though & I think you're really going to love the videos. Lots of dirty talk, a masturbation countdown and a very slurpy toe sucking video. Yay!

I'll be busy editing pics tonight and hopefully get the video rendering before I go to sleep. I better brew some more coffee...in for a long night!

Passions Are Stirring

One of the downsides of running an adult website and writing a blog when you're the nude model of said site are the times (like right now) when you really don't feel sexy. I'm sure I still look sexy enough and I certainly still feel horny, I just haven't felt particularly excited about posing for the camera lately. Or writing about it!

Part of what's been keeping me away from posting here and creating new photos to share has been the stirring of other passions, both sexual and non. On the non-sexual side, my creative juices have been flowing; I've been drawing, painting, sewing - making things! It feels great. I've been running my sites and working in the adult industry for so long that it feels really refreshing to do something that's NOT focused on what I look like for a change.

The other change has been the revving up my webcam. I hadn't done a private cam show since I moved to this house last year, but after getting a chance to play a couple of times last week, I realized how much I missed it. I love the instant gratification, the never knowing who is going to pop in next or what their fantasy will entail. Will I be fully dressed and dangling my heels? Or sucking my own toes? Or rubbing my pussy as a sniff my bare feet? So much fun!

And when we're finished, I'm also finished. There's no uploading or editing or batching or FTPing. I just crawl into bed with a smile on my face. Of course, the downside of that is I *don't* have anything to upload or encode or FTP. I would really like to have a high quality copy of my hottest shows. I love flipping through all my old photos and seeing the great shots, those old flip flops, that pretty shade of polish. And with the cam shows, it's more than that because I'd also get to remember the person I'm playing with. Plus I'd get to share with all of you!

Shooting Today

I need to shoot some new content today - photos and videos for both my foot fans and for my nude pics site. I'm trying to come up with a plan that includes my ideas and member requests which has me going through outfits and piles of lingerie, matching with shoes and looking around my tiny apartment to figure where I can shoot that I haven't already used a bunch of times before. Then I'll need to do a major clean & try to de-dog everything, move furniture out of the way & set up the lights. Oh, are my batteries charged? For the camera, flash AND the video camera?

I already painted my toes last night, a pretty pale yellow that seems perfectly fitting for the spring weather, but it's almost impossible for me to shoot outside if I plan to get naked. Bare feet? That I can do. Finding a balance between the two sites is really weighing on me today. If I were just shooting sexy feet pics, I'd probably be done already! I've been getting some great ideas from members that I'm really looking forward to shooting.

Unfortunately, the income from this site doesn't even cover my hosting bill, so it looks like I'm still a long way off from being able to focus my time 100% on my feet. Which is fine...I like shooting leg content, hosiery and dressing up too. But on days like today I just feel a little overwhelmed by the whole prospect of doing all of these jobs, wearing all of these hats by myself. I'm the model, the photographer, the photo editor, the webmaster, the tech support, the server administrator and the marketing manager. Oh plus it's tax time, so I'm also the accountant and bookkeeper!

It's days like this that having a 9 to 5 job sounds pretty good!

Lazy Weekend

I took most of the weekend off this last weekend and really enjoyed it. I didn't do much - slept late, starting reading a new book (Women by Charles Bukowski), took the dogs for a hike in the woods wearing my new yellow rubber boots (which was a good thing too because it was pretty muddy!). It was very laid back and just what I needed.

Since I work from home, I have a hard time finding time that's truly "off". My mind still races and I always have a pile of things I'd like to accomplish. So even when I'm relaxing and watching TV, I still have that residual guilt for what I *should* be doing instead. It can be exhausting.

I'm going to try to get into the habit of working a normal schedule, with scheduled time off included. They say it takes less than 30 days to form a new habit, so hopefully by the time March rolls around I'll be well on my way to getting more work done during the day and more true relaxing in my free time.

And of course, more pictures to share with you!